LiNg's SiTe

(Ooooh)

It's been the longest winter without you
I didn't know where to turn to
See somehow I can't forget you
After all that we've been through

Going coming thought I heard a knock
Who's there no one
Thinking that I deserve it
Now I realize that I really didn't know
If you didn't notice you mean everything
Quickly I'm learning to love again
All I know is I'ma be ok

[Chorus:]
Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
And even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time

I couldn't turn on the TV
Without something there to remind me
Was it all that easy
To just put aside your feelings

If I'm dreaming don't wanna laugh
Hurt my feelings but that's the past
I believe it
And I know that time will heal it
If you didn't notice boy you meant everything
Quickly I'm learning to love again
All I know is I'ma be ok

[Chorus:]
Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
And even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time

Since there's no more you and me
It's time I let you go
So I can be free
And live my life how it should be
No matter how hard it is I'll be fine without you
Yes I will

[Chorus: x2]
Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
And even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time

After my failed attempt to revive blogging after creating a Livejournal account with only one pathetic entry to boast (since the days of Xanga died of a natural death), i shall again bravely give myself another chance at blogging, only this time it's at Multiply.

Many a times, it's mere procrastination that makes me stop short at sitting in front of my really chio bright red vaio typing away. But today, i shall break away from my usual lazy self and indulge in a narcissistic entry for a start.

Having being woken up on a chilly wed morning by my colleague's sms, i lazed in bed about an hour or so before i dragged myself outta bed (with considerably less effort this time) and decided to head to East Coast beach for a jog. It was supposed to be a weekly routine, after I got myself  a set of pretty Nike sports attire 2 wks ago in the hope of motivating myself to run (vain i know..heh), but i was simply too drony to do anything strenuous last wk.

Today is going to be different i thought. No laziness, no excuses..nothing.

But a large part was also to prove law wrong, who kept insisting that I should 'simply hang my track shoes and stash my running attire' at the back of my already full wardrobe 'cos 'i know you won't run one'. Hmph!

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Brisk-walked to East Coast Park and after a quick warm-up, jogged for 15 min to the tunes of Eric Clapton, Maroon 5 and Queen before my stamina started to fail me. Huffing and puffing away, i stopped. Age has gotten the better of me, hahaha (then again I was never a pro-runner to begin with!)

Headed for Coffeebean for my Egg's Ben breakfast and my daily dose of caffeine- al fresco style. It was pure bliss to me. The weather was cool and fantastic, the breakfast was yummy, and I could read the papers and people-watch all at the same time=) There was no need to keep track of time (in fact i wore no watch), it was just me, myself and i..

I remembered watching the people around me, especially the yummy mummies blading with their cute little toddlers in solid, pretty prams, and wished I could be just like them. Carefree, rich (expats have to be rich), young, pretty and a mum to a cute little thing! Except for the fact that the really cute toddlers were mostly ang-mohs with curly wurly hair, so I've no idea how I'm gonna achieve that;p For a start, I could snag a cute ang-moh guy, but that will have MANY implications. Then again, I consider myself a very loyal girlfriend despite everything, heh.

So as I was day-dreaming away and allow myself to get lost in an almost non-existential world, a nagging thought at the back of my head forbade me to entirely consummate what could be a beautiful moment.

In my usual neurotic fashion, I had a lot of what-ifs on my mind. What if Mas Selamat appears here? How will I react? What will I do? Will he have a gun? a knife? Many of you may find it lame but being a constant worrier by nature, I couldn't help but think. Also, I often subscribe to the thought that 'you never know what will happen'. This had a lot to do with my mum, who like me, worries a lot and is extremely protective of me. So it's in the genes k? I tried not to let paranoia get the better of me, and continued sipping my coffee and reading the papers until of course, the papers reminded me that the guy is still on the loose and to watch out for discarded clothes! Let's just hope and pray he gets caught really soon;p

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Sui often asks me if there's any updates back home here in S'pore, i always tell her 'nothing..same la, boring'. So yes, life's quite monotonous lately..it often alternates between work and home and occasional meet ups with friends (but as a good friend recently reminded me, I need to put in more effort in the department of the latter). Work's not an excuse, but sometimes, it tires you out so much that all you want is to stay in and nua. Hopefully I'll break away from my usual nua-ness and behave like a 24 going on to 25 yr-old lady instead of a 60 yr old ah-soh.

Enough rambling for a start today, ain't sure what I'm gonna do next before heading down to town later to thread my brows. But one thing's for sure, no hitting the sack and waste my precious off day away